In a field.

Dark 

Pale

Sensitive

Tactless

Genius

Thoughtless

Detrimental

Sweet

Bad 

Good

Mysterious

Emotionless

Similar

Different

Addicting

Addicted

Internal conflict has never been so prominent.

I thought you were the only walking contradiction I knew, 

until someone told me that we were the same person.

People need to learn the difference between living in the moment vs. thinking in the moment.

And yes, I'm speaking to the author. 

People need to take into consideration that sometimes having what you want

in the short run is going to stop your heart in the long.

And yes, I'm speaking to the author.

And on that Wednesday night, the moon was half full

but the people were only half there

I wasn't having fun 

But I believed you when you said I would

Shadows loomed and stars began to move

I told god I was not myself

Because I'm not. 

I am not who I am

demons giggled and chapped hands began to quiver.

Folks who always say they'll stay tend to be the ones

who always end up leaving.

Three am is dark and slightly colder when you're alone

The stars and their voices became less friendly 

and so did I

and at 15% we shared a 15 minute call

you gave one too few apologies 

and left a million questions buried beneath my head

God says we need to forgive

And so I did.

God says we need to love

and so I am.

But I don't know how long I can tolerate someone with brown eyes

Brown eyes that are dangerously similar to yours.

But nonetheless 

I gave it to you still beating 

Now lets see how long I can keep breathing.