thoughts all over the place

Alcohol in your veins 

burdens itching at my brain

stolen jewelry cant hold us together anymore

mom says life's never going to be the same. 

There's girls refusing food in America, 

and children being starved in Africa.

The world has become chaos' b*tch

cops bodies are being found in a ditch

"but really, who even gives a sh*t"?
.
.
.
I filled my ears with lighter fluid

in hopes I could come up with an idea

hot enough to create a spark

then just maybe I could rescue my mind out from this dark.

But I'm 17 years old mom, and truth be told

I know nothing of marriage or divorce.

I have grown weary from this game you call Therapy 

and I love you, but it looks like our time is up.


World wide news has etched a tangible worry into his head

trying to replace his heart with 3 parts anger to 2 parts alcohol.


Kids are being beaten, 

Teens are huffing glue

Husbands are watching porn 

making sure to leave their wives at the door.


Prozac, Effexor and Celexa 

Valium, Vodka and Zyprexa 

and 4 years worth of Lunesta.


The world's at war

She lived her childhood locked outside her parents door,

But day his dead body hit the floor?
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.
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I couldn't say that I knew you anymore.

I wonder what has happened to this world we live

I grew up thinking we all had so much to give

and 

I hate to admit

but

I feel i'm losing the will to forgive

                                  .

                                  .

                                  .

I have this vision I replay in my head

one where everyone that we hated was dead..

I never met you in that parking lot

and he was nothing but a mere signature on a goodbye document.

I know I cant change mine...But you can change yours.

So please come forward and leave that cowardliness at the door.

Stop waiting for god to give you a sign

I know you're just biding your time

and I guess....that's fine 

but its not going to be when you're shivering alone underneath the dirt.

It's almost become a countdown 

from when I was 5,

and who knows if you'll make it to 20.

115,

110,

107,

105,

99, 

Stop. 

Stop because I love you.

Stop because he loves you.

The world is at war, and so are we. 

The world is at war, and so is she.

so are you.. and I just wanted to tell you

That I love you. 

I love you.

I love you.

Cut those puppet strings and lets us 3 go be

 lonely together.