If I could speak to my childhood

IF I COULD SPEAK TO MY CHILDHOOD

     When I think of my childhood I think of waking up on a Saturday morning, running down the stairs and turning on the Nintendo to play Mario Party.

I think about the smell of crayons and running through the streets with your "neighborhood posse" because that's what we called ourselves.

I think about waking up on Christmas mornings, when it had freshly snowed and dying to run downstairs to see what Santa had brought. The only problem was, my siblings and I all had to wait for hours until my parents finally got their butts out of bed.

I think about how many T.V. shows I watched, whether its "The Proud Family", "Bear in the big blue house", "Rolley polley olley", "Full House", or "The fresh prince." I didn't realize it, but T.V. was such a big part of my childhood.

I remember always trying to grow up too fast, being the youngest was hard. I was constantly left out of everything and if I was doing something "childish" I was made fun of. I remember if I ever wanted to do something that kids did, I would have to hide it. Siblings rock.

I think about how much I was outside with my friends, riding bikes and exploring our foresty-ravine. I miss door bell ditching when the sun went down, and playing "add-on" on our friends trampolines.

I miss getting hand delivered birthday party invitations for your friends parties, and knowing that you HAD to get your friend the best gift, or else it wouldn't mean anything. 

If I could speak to my childhood right now I would tell it to stall as long as it could. I would tell my childhood that you may not realize it right now, but this is the best time of your life and you will never be able to get your innocence back no matter how hard you try.

I would tell my childhood to prepare itself because the world from here on out gets a hell of a lot harder in every aspect. I would tell my childhood to be ready for guilt, sadness, heartbreak, stress, immense confusion, and loss. 

Lastly, I would tell my childhood not to be entirely scared to grow up. although it stings, its still fun. 

I miss you, childhood.